no, really, i am alone

As I mentioned, my marriage is falling apart, which is why I have to heal, once and for all. I'm at work today and panicking, teary-eyed...generally falling apart at the seams. My immediate reaction is to run to someone: call my parents, call a friend...let someone see my hurt, thinking somehow that helps it.

It doesn't.

So today, I'm praying...praying hard. And I'm repeating my wife's saying over and over, "I may feel not strong, but I really am".

I guess this is how you build yourself, huh? Be alone and try to survive? It's foreign to me...and scary as hell...but if it makes a man of me, I'm in...